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2012-01-17T22:23:00.003+08:00

1st post of the year 2012~

Lots of things happened, long time never blogged

Have been working at CK Yishun for around 2 weeks from mid Dec till start of Jan

Have to say, its not a really pleasant experience. Or else why wld I quit ?

haha felt so cheated... hv been counting and my salary shld be more than $570

But when I get the call asking me to go collect my pay... guess what, $388.

WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS THIS ?

What can I do? Nothing .. just gave a fake smile and leave that hellhole once and for all.

Have to say, 2011 have been a torturing year for me.

Or I shld say, this past 3 years feels like a horribly long nightmare to me.

Nothing goes well.

Studies... che. Retained a year and finally can't take it any more I withdrawn.

Health... I'm not 100% healthy in the first place, but it has gone worse haha

Now I have to fucking go see the doctor once a week. OH NICE.

2012 .. ? che, I don't give much hope.

Waiting for news of admission. What if all the 4 courses don't want me?

ahhh that .. I am not expecting much, I'm prepared.

I'm not really scared of anything anymore.

2011-11-23T23:13:00.002+08:00

Up till this point .. I really feel like I wont feel anything or fear anything.. even if I go down from the 12th haha. No.. have to go down from a higher one like 24th.. to ensure 100% success in shutting down. Mood swings are occurring so often. Am totally hyper and energized one moment, and suddenly tearing up and depressed the next moment. If not.. fuming up because of small little things.. or don't even feel anything went something went wrong.

You must think I sound insane. Ya true. I am insane.

I feel myself going more and more insane.. Tired of life tired of everything.

Thoughts of ending everything haha..

Shall maintain my fake smiles and laughters. They are needed to recharge my soul.

2011-11-21T15:43:00.003+08:00

Hmm last saturday 19/11 was so stressed and annoyed.

Somemore THAT happened totally emoing and longing for someone to talk to it about.

Was crying and my siblings saying that I'm crazy. WELL of course I'll seem crazy to them

as if they know how I'm feeling.

After that.. something that happens on twitter made me feel even worse.

but bet the people who made me feel worse don't even know about it. forget it.

Expect nothing and accept everything and you will never be disappointed -- quoted

So true.

Anyway, made plans to meet Yuto after that which is like so last min XD

Actually planned to go eat with him at the foodcourt .. then Kokoro say to go her hse eat :)

So meet Yuto go NTUC help Koko buy tofu and seeweed then go up her hse :)

HAHA~! and this Nakayama Yuto ~ told him to call me when he about to reach then I can get out of the hse to meet him at control station...

He straight away went to NTUC and stood outside for.. (he say is 15min)

After 15min then call me -___-'' then hv to wait for me to walk out and go meet him

why u so cute ~ XD

Reached Koko's house, she cook and we just sit there look XD

Since we've been together for like.. more than half of my life~

They tell me to speak since they know there's something bothering me ~

And I was like WOW .. and .. was so touched ~ so I just spilled out whatever that has happened that morning~

I'm so moved.. cuz its..

I don't have to tell myself to choose the correct time or try to attract their attentions first before telling them about my probs.

すっかり心を動かされた。♥

Although I'm still awkward with Kokoro ~ I want to get closer to her even more :)

Now that I realized something.. so sorry towards her, cuz I'm like.. always sticking with Momoko when she was still around in the past.. and sort of neglects her.

In the past I even thought she hates me XD well since she's not like her sis .. so bubbly and cheery ~ I mistook her silence and cool cool attitude ><

after dinner time me and Yuto was like .. laying on her sofas like its our own hse XD

Anyway~ after that met Yun at cck :) ate at 302 ~ chatchatchat

then walk n chat to yewtee~ then eat icecream chat again hahah~ :)

But I always love our chatting sessions. as usual me hates to part ~

Always saying ' wo bu xiang hui jia '

Abit sorry for those who always hear me saying this ~ It must be very annoying right ~

But I truly hates going home after meeting my dear people ><

2011-11-15T16:06:00.003+08:00

Any cravings lately ? -- -- --

2011-11-15T01:04:00.004+08:00

Mondays ~ I hate them, but today .. or rather yesterday XD was ok for me..

Since lecturer agreed to my design idea.. Which will only occur hmm once in a thousand years? Okay, I'm exaggerating here, ignore me ~

Was tumblr-ing and saw this tumblr whereby a Jewel showed off her HYUK necklace ~

AHHhh I want one too >< Wanted to buy one quite a long time ago,

ever since I saw Eunhyuk wearing it during It's You promotions ..

Went to check out the reviews just now.. around 8/10 people saying theirs broke into halves o_o

Hmm.. took train home together with that midget today.

Sometimes for some reasons, just feel like landing my fist on that annoying creature's face :)

Anyway , found this and love it ♥ ♥ -----

KAMIKI RYUNOSUKE ♥ Love him lots ! Although not as much as how I love EunHyuk =P

He's cute ~

He's talented ~

A good actor ~

He's just lovely ~! ♥ ... well not as much as Hyuk ^^

11 . 11 . 11 ^_^

2011-11-12T21:08:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was 11.11.11 ~ Happy Pepero Day ~! ♥

Or happy pocky day~ haha :) Had fun yesterday with my dearest people~

Look up there ~ ^^^^^^ HAHA , we ate 10 packets in total ~ pro right

End up feeling so full, too much sweet stuff at once :)

Was being so random, was wishing one another Happy pepero day, and then randomly :

Wanna meet and celebrate ?

ok ok !

HAHA ♥

I want to celebrate many more important / random festivals with these people ~ ♥

eating and drinking bubble tea ~ chatchat like usual at our territory~

then out of no where, sudd decided to film ourselves dancing XD

Miss A's GOODBYE BABY ~!

Legs UP ! UP ! UP ! , SLIDE.... SWING LEFT , SWING RIGHT ~ kekeke!

after that follow by many other songs ~

danced to Genie, bo peep, lalala~ ♥

so many videos~ will be damn great memories when we look at them in the future :)

Took many photos too XD

And we were like .. celebrating Pepero day + Halloween keke ~

Most of the photos are quite unglam .. AS USUAL XD

Seriously~ These are the people that I can shout out : " I can't live my life without u !! "

HAHAH~ Always so happy and enjoyed every minute with them :)

我爱你们！！！♥♥

2011-11-03T22:13:00.002+08:00

Should blog now before I'm too stress and busy to blog again.

So many things happened. This wk's monday, have to assemble at Changi airport terminal 3 by 10am. -.- have to wake so early and take MRT from yewtee to Changi... damn long cannn

Task: find 5 different glass material to sketch and take pics, plus annotation. -.-

After we went Coffee Bean find lecturers to let them check our work, we can go off.

So.. after that went to Mac with the midget and Andrea. Various things that the midget said make me feel like strangling her. Shall not go into details~ to prevent myself from typing too hard.

My laptop keys are innocent :)

Yesterday night didn't sleep at all. hmm let me count.. since the last time I woke up its been.. more than 40 hours -.-

Last night was a complete disaster, rushing my research, my Matech, my animation and my Model at the same time. Was so hungry and tired. then when my model was about ... 80plus% done, it collapse~ halleluyah~

right at that moment.. I was just stunned and feeling like shit. Suddenly went blank and just threw my penknife to the wall.

In the end.. only submitted my Matech, my animation and my research. yea good job -.-

was totally blank and shows no emotions even when the lecturers are talking to me.

Lecturer: How many pages of research ?

Me: 4

Lecturer: *tick* Animation video?

Me: *push disc to her*

Lecturer: Ur Model?

Me: Don't have *blank stare*

Lecturer: Why dont have? *Wide eyed*

Me: Collapsed.

Cool right ~ well no... The moment I went back to my seat, I can feel my eyes heat up hhaha.

Have to force back tears. Don't want to cry among a bunch of chickenstrangers~

2011-10-26T16:50:00.000+08:00

2011-10-26T02:09:00.005+08:00

Don't know what I am doing anymore.

No aim no future no hope..

Just endlessly rushing design projects.

So what if I get the diploma ? If I continue with design in my career.

More stress.. more sleepless night. No recognition of hard work.

Suddenly feeling my life so pointless. Recently so depressed.

Always putting a fake smile in school.

I scared that one day, I won't remember how to really smile.

Was as usual .. sitting at this spot rushing like a mad woman..

Using my autocad.. drawing the office plan .. ..

At one moment tears just roll down suddenly ..

And I'm like crying and doing at the same time.

The tears just won't stop.

I'm even crying while typing this post.

Whats wrong with me ?

I feel like giving up everything ..

Everytime I complain about how hard this is..

People will say .. "don't exaggerate" .. or .. "don't stress yourself "..

"Try harder" .. "oh but this looks fun"

The inner me feel sick and tired ..

Gradually .. I just stop complaining. and keep everything inside.

feels like every cell is breaking apart from constant stress.

Now that I think of it ... When was the last time I get a proper sleep ?

When was the last time whereby I can pass a day without thinking abt my works?

When was the last time whereby I can rest my brain n go to sleep without sorting out my design and To-do list while lying on the bed ?

So sick and tired of all this.

Thursday have to submit the frames thing, animation video and model. Oh ya and plan view and reflected ceiling plan of Mr Seetoh's office.

Well I may be able to finish it if I sleep now and wake up at 6am .

So bye readers if I have any

In the past .. people with suicidal thoughts or committed it .. I always thought they were fools.

Well... now I know what they felt when they were habouring those thoughts.

2011-10-21T08:44:00.002+08:00

Long day yesterday. School from 10 to 6pm

Don't know why.. the studio cold like hell yeterday ><

Lucky got bring jacket. Around 4 plus me and Andrea finished our consultations :)

Went downstairs to year 1 studio to slack sleep chat.

Waiting for our yr 3 friends :)

after 1 hr plus they came ~ then we went clementi

Had dinner at Sweensens the chicken baked-rice OKOK only lehs -_-

I thought will be very nice.. again, pictures cheat my feeling.

for dessert.. all of them got some chocolaty icecream~ me get hot chocolate

after that went to partyworld sing from 8 to 11 ~

haha oh ya, they went to partyworld, me n cheryl went to buy cake first.

Celebrate Melissa's belated birthday XD

I'm abit sad bcuz .. the songs mostly i dunno -_-

but after about an hour me and cheryl start to get abit high..

Yes as usual... I have to control myself. Can't get myself too crazy.

I was like only raising my voice slightly louder than the mike..

and I get weird looks from some of them. -_-

I don't have to worry about all these stuff with Spoil radio gang haha ♥

And THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I EXPERIENCED SUCH AN ATMOSPHERE

WHEN I SING BIGBANG'S HIGHHIGH !!! ----_____----

At the start I'm like shouting in the mike a little.. then I realize..

all of them are just sitting there staring at the screen..

makes me feel so awkward .. -_- yea I stop shouting...

BUT SINGING HIGH HIGH WITH SUCH NORMAL N CALM VOICE

IS JUST NOT RIGHT -__- no mood continue singing that song halfway thru.

ANyway ... haiz... D=

At the last hour, brought in the chocolate birthday cake....

YES CHOCOLATE AGAIN~

that explains why my throat feels so dry and rough right now ~

Today is Friday ~ HAPPPPYYY

2011-10-19T21:04:00.005+08:00

C ute

H yper

E ngaged to me

R esponsible

Y outhful

L ovable

T alkative

A pple

N eat ? N o

Y ucky ^^ haha kidding

U nique

N ice

X traordinary

I ntelligent

N oisy

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DAR DAR ^_^

LOVE YOU ! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2011-10-19T19:10:00.002+08:00

Dear Momo-chi, ( I miss calling u that )

I still remember how I made this up ^^

U were alot shorter than me last time rmb?

So chibi when standing beside me HAHA !

Momoko + Chibi = Momochi ^^ keke

But after our puberty periods.. u became taller than me -_-

haha!

Anyway..

How's life up there? Must be really peaceful and carefree.

I miss u so much. Do u miss me?

I'm sure Kokoro, NakaJ and the others miss u too

All of us do.

Rmb the times we spent together~

I still rmb very clearly how we met :) as if it happened ytd

The times when I always call u after I cry haha ..

But I'm always smiling after we hang up.

Among us, u are the one I'm closest with. The one I depend on.

The moment..

when u bought the 1way ticket and left Earth.. is the moment I realised..

how much I have been relying on you.

How can you leave us so early?

We promised each other that I will go with u to ur hometown for a long-stay after I graduate.

You promised that u will bring me to alot of fun places.

I promised that one day I will make a meal for u, because u complained how I always go over ur hse n make u cook for me when I don't want to go home haha~

See .. I haven't go with u to Nihon .. We haven't go to those fun places .. I have not even once cooked for you. And now that u are gone.. This is one of the many things that I regretted.

Was really stress and all depressed just now making me thought of you again.

haha anyway.. haiz.. will never forget u :) so.. see U in my next life . Love u ~

2011-10-16T02:31:00.002+08:00

Right now, 2:35 am of Sunday.

that means, school starts tomorrow.

I don't know how to describe this feeling but..

haiz, sch reopening = tons of stress, tons of depressing thoughts.

Less time with dearest people :(

Why holiday seems so fast ? I haven't played enough.

Haiz~

Hmm anyway~ went out after dinner with my whole family

was shopping together, then I bought something for someone's upcoming birthday ^^

To me Miss Pauper, its expensive can.

Although people may think its not much. Me can't afford more.

And I have to find time to clean that messy dusty cupboard,

And spare some hours to do card.

*Hands on both side of head*

AH STRESS~!

2011-10-12T12:42:00.002+08:00

On sat 8th Oct, went Yun's house for steamboat ~

I feel bad >< didnt do anything for her birthday.

Meet them in the morning go market, almost can't wake up haha!

Watched Liar Game at her house, its quite nice :)

Steamboat eat till so full XD other moments abit bored ~

Yun is not being a good host heheh!

The best moment was when we are playing TABOO ^^

Split into 2 groups ~ end of the game DRAW HAHA!

No win no lose all happy larh~

And our dear Yun's "Pray to Father" thingy haha!

Leavw=e her house late at night~

went to grandma's house. -_- bring my mood down only.

School starting this coming monday -_-

Previously thought Holiday will be till after DAR's birthday

Aish~ counted wrongly :(

2011-10-06T00:52:00.003+08:00

Been feeling better since this morning :)

Only that stomach still feel abit bloaty ~
last time my weight was 65 kg~ but haha

this morning weigh, 60kg ><

Keep losing weight little by little~hmm but not really happy

since, I lost all these kilos due to being sick -_-

Was thinking should I continue watching this anime, since

I watched it halfway but still doesn't know the ending.

But this anime is so depressing aish ~ hahha XD

Was really hurt by some comments today.

This person, which I've only met like... 3 or 4 times?

Well, she's like being very straight to the point and say that I'm ugly.

Its not that I don't agree with her, yea I know I'm ugly.

Everyone knows, but they have a HEART to keep that comment to themselves.

Why can't you do the same? Just because U look okay?

U got me? U look OKAY, cuz U are not really perfect pretty too ~

Oh well, time for bed, shall kill you in my dreams nights :)

2011-10-02T21:58:00.002+08:00

Just came back from grandma's place. Same old same old ~

Spent a night there -_- Saturday morning, body suddenly feel very weak

Feel like fainting although I'm just standing brushing my teeth -_-

Met Dar at Jurong East to go library~ she study I play haha

Yun and Yuhboh came at a later time ^^

Introduced Tetris Battle to Dar and Yun,

hmm.. they should be addicted now kekeke.

At one point, suddenly headache and light headed, making my mood drop

Really sorry to Dar, Yun and Yuhboh,

if I've shown any bad mood face to u that day, I'm really sorry ><

God~~ I want to be in tiptop condition by 7th Oct night haha :)

praypraypray~

--___-- Just went to check my Me2day~

ya as expected, kenna spammed like no one's business,

wanna check whether yun dar ur yuhboh got post anot oso difficult -_-

Hmm should sleep early today ~ let my body replenish

since I didn't get to sleep well at my grandma's place last night

and .. haiz~ I'm getting worse and worse doing handmade gifts TT^TT

2011-09-29T18:29:00.002+08:00

Happy Belated birthday to Shindong ^^

Your birthday is 1 day after Yuhboh's haha :)

hmm, nothing much to blog about ~

this afternoon my mum's friend decided to visit...

Like suddenly -_- she just phoned us and say she's reaching in 5 minutes time.

Like what the ? she's just like someone I knoWW

Being so uninvited, come our house just to brag about her trip to Bangkok and Seoul.

Have to blast my music to block out her annoying voice.

Just created Me2Day , and it gave me a headache haha

Long time didn't eat Mac, now craving for McWings so random~

2011-09-28T13:22:00.002+08:00

26th Sept meet up with SRG (spoil radio gang)

haha~ celebrated Yuhboh's birthday ^^

Me and Yun arrived at meeting place first,

went to see see cakes here and there,

then went back to the first cake shop to choose cake haha .

decided to buy the Barney one to shock the birthday girl :)

chat eat take pics. I just love every moments with them.

Lied down in a circle take pics XD all the photos look so unglam can ~

I don't want school to reopen >< more holidays please haha ~

2011-09-24T21:22:00.003+08:00

Its Saturday night, and we are going off to grandma's house...

In about 5 mnutes time -_- What the hell, can someone tell me,

do they visit their grandparents that often? As in, I always have to sacrifice my Saturday nights.

AND THE WHOLE OF MY PRECIOUS SUNDAYS.

Its not that I don't like them, I love my grandparents, but PLEASE larh,

this is a bit exaggerating. Seeing them every week, every of my precious Sundays are wasted.

Oh yea BYE , packing up and going already -_-

2011-09-20T18:34:00.002+08:00

Totally emo for the past few days.

Finally let it all out yesterday ><

thanks for the call dar, the duck song and charlie the unicorn haha!

Those who asked me what happened.. although I'm not saying >< thanks for all your concerns.

Have to cheer up for tomorrow ^_^ since I'm going Teo Heng with my Dar, Yun and Yuhboh ♥♥♥

And stupid Naka I know you are reading, you knew I only understands romanji =_= or... can't u tag in english? U do this again I'm going to ignore you.

Going to find running man episodes to watch after dinner :D

I should sleep early today >< Hv a feeling going to be sick again

2011-09-19T22:04:00.003+08:00

2011-09-16T23:33:00.004+08:00

During dinner, I suddenly realized that I've totally forgotten about my gum problems haha!

Went to the mirror and check, that hole is gone ~ ^^ miracle! Although its still abit swollen, I can now chew with both sides ! YEAH

Although an empty tagboard makes me depress, I just placed one XD

I'm too bored at home . Want to go out, but low on $$ !

I am seriously addicted to coffee now, how ? Mum's not happy.

2011-09-14T22:09:00.002+08:00

Bought SILKPRO MASKHAV Conditioner today :)

Using a Pantene shampoo with Silkpro conditioner ><

Does mixing brands do any harm to the hair or scalp ?

Nevermind that~ Pantene smells nice, but after using the Silkpro conditioner..

HAHAH i like the smell better :)

but the smell like too strong lehs..

I'm sitting here typing my post ~ but I can smell my conditioner strongly from my hair XD

Was torturing my SIM the other day XD actually planning to post my printscreens, but lazy.

I'm not evil , just too bored hehhehe

2011-09-13T12:04:00.002+08:00

So depressing, my gum is still swollen.

I'm still chewing only with teeth on the left.

Faster recover can ~? I don't want go dentist ><

Meeting Dar, Yuhboh and Yun later at night to play candles XD

HAHA~ I totally miss them and our TeoHeng session kekeke.

Poly friends asked me out 2 times, both I reject ~

I like them, but sometimes its just so tired to be with them.

I have to remind myself not to go overboard sometimes.

In other words, I still can't fully be myself when I'm with them.

I think if I starting shouting and jumping during our Partyworld sessions, they will think I'm drunk or something.

2011-09-11T16:48:00.001+08:00

Aish~ lazy lazy~

tonight then edit the blog template again -_-

2011-09-09T23:31:00.003+08:00

Bought this a few hours ago from Guardian.

Have to take 1 pill per hour ><

well, the taste is bearable, so no big deal.

But problem is... how is this suppose to heal the hole in my gum I wonder...

NO CHOICE ~ I'm scared of the dentist ><

Was thinking whether I should change my blogskin ~ haha

feeling ABIT better today. was totally in EMO-ING state the whole of yesterday after I discovered the hole in gum D'=

今天和 YUHBOH 用 STUDIO 的电脑玩 SIMS SOCIALS 玩到很爽 ! haha :D

2011-09-08T18:28:00.002+08:00

went out with my Mother , bro and sis.

main purpose is to go POPULAR, since we got the vouchers.

-__-

went to Clementi Mall, since my siblings CLAIMED that they hv a very big POPULAR Bookstore there. Which looks like every normal popular stores -_-

...

My gum behind my last tooth.. was abit swollen since 2 days ago.. and now there's a hole in the gum TT_______TT

WHATS HAPPENING ?!? D'=

GUM DISEASE?!?

WISDOM TOOTH !?!?!

I DON'T KNOW ~!! D'=

i dont want go dentist D'=

scared scared scared scared HOW ?! D'=

2011-09-08T18:12:00.003+08:00

this is so depressing to think of... being excluded just like that

Its like I'm suddenly being categorize under the term : Stranger.

well what can I do ? :(

Since they are such nice people, I can't bring myself to hate what they did too.

Momo I miss you , why do u have to leave the world so early?

I've became too dependent on you.

2011-08-18T19:39:00.003+08:00

I am going to swear all I want.

FUCK

FUCKING HELL HOLE this place is.

So irritated , frustrated and annoyed today !

My sister is becoming more and more BITCHY and FLIRTY

My brother is becoming more and more ah beng.

My mum is getting from worst to SHITS

My dad is how to say.. getting hateful seriously.

My sis is getting all high and mighty just cause she scored B3 for chi O LVL.

WHAT THE SMELLY FUCKING HELL, want hao lian get A1 larh BITCH.

My mom went through my things. My bag. My drawer.

CHICKEN MACNUGGETS who u think u are ?

Police searching for evidence ? WHAT? think I hiding Ecstasy Pills isit?

FUCK LARH ! BLOODY DUMBSHITS DUMBASS DOUCHEBAGS RETARDS BASTARDS COWSHITS LAMEASS ARSEHOLES

2011-08-05T16:39:00.002+08:00

Having fever since morning,

Used Ice-pack on forehead,

temperature went down 1 degree and up again after a few minutes. great.

Want to eat pills for fever, cannot find pills. great.

Want to go sleep for a few hours, but my mum chose this day to wash my blanket. GREAT.

2011-08-01T02:56:00.000+08:00

I seriously thought of killing myself.

I even dreamt of it WOW

2011-07-23T09:50:00.001+08:00

HAHHAHAHAHA

Super Junior 5th Album

August come faster! ^^

2011-06-27T22:33:00.002+08:00

My skull feel like its going to crack.

feeling so sick now that I can definitely faint after spinning 10 rounds.

2011-06-26T01:48:00.002+08:00

I am starting school on monday.

I haven't finish my assignment.

I love you ah ma , but please go home.

I feel like I'm facing my mum 24/7 although she's not home.

I 'm tired.

I sleep I eat, but these few days I just feel so tired.

I need more oxygen in my blood.

I hate how doctors always say the same things over and over.

I want to move out.

I want to isolate from the world.

I want to live alone.

I am seriously going to do that in the future.

I just hate my life.

Momoko I miss you. All of us miss you.

2011-06-22T23:06:00.002+08:00

Fainting spells getting more frequent.

Getting up from my seat can make me see clouds

And those stupid black-red pills are like.. not working.

No one understands how Thalassemia minor victims feels.

Just because its MINOR .. and we dont look pale and weak like those that kenna major...

doctors are always telling us.. oh u don't need treatment.

please go online and see those forums of these victims complaining how their life are always so tired.

2011-06-13T09:05:00.002+08:00

I hate the mindset of this particular person.

just because u are not interested in KPOP, u call it bloody and damn while worshipping some Jpop things.

please larh.. if u are into J .. go ahead. Have to badmouth K like that meh ?

Whats ur bloody point ?

U will get any good out of this meh ?

If we say Jpop is F and S .. u will like it meh ?
Use ur bloody common sense can ?

Or did u even have it in the first place ?

And just for u to know.. if u had nvr realized this FACT . the Earth doesn't revolves around you.

Want everything to suit u in which~ever way u want?

Go to Mars or Jupiter or something.

Live with the aliens.

. . . . . .

Bloody Hell.

Someday in the future.. I'm gonna shout "I hated u since years ago!" in a metre's distance.

I gonna make u cry like hell.

DAMN

2011-05-27T20:34:00.003+08:00

They say you need to pray,

if you want to go to heaven.

But they don't tell you what to say

when your whole life has gone to hell.

2011-05-17T22:40:00.001+08:00

Maybe I am just thinking too much

Its getting better now . I hope.

Am really glad that I have made new friends.

2011-05-12T21:06:00.000+08:00

What am I suppose to do ?

We are only classmates not friends.

Well.. we basically only talk just for the sake of discussing our project.

And now.. they didnt even tell me what I hv to do as my part.

Great.. then u all can grade me with a big fat F during peer grading ?

Well thats great news =)

MUM

2011-05-04T20:31:00.002+08:00

Mum .. ..

Sometimes the one person you can't live with, is the only person you can't live without.

2011-05-04T16:34:00.003+08:00

Recently so obssessed with Piano and Violin Duets, but I don't know why.

Can't wait for KBOX outing with my sisters. I miss them already.

And I'm so bored that I finished watching Merlin Season 1 and half way through Season 2 already.

I guess this is what my life is going to be like... for the next 300 plus days.

No choice but to get use to it.

Just take it as a year of peace before the storm.

2011-04-27T22:37:00.004+08:00

2011-04-26T13:38:00.005+08:00

这个家表面上什么都有，

其实它什么都没有。

--- 小孩不笨2

Loneliness

2011-04-24T00:31:00.003+08:00

Trip to Old Kallang Airport on Monday.

Different bus from my friend.

Will be alone in the bus with bunch of younger strangers.

Can I don't go ?

You don't know how much I'm afraid to be alone.

2011-04-20T19:17:00.002+08:00

No school day, but what's the point ? The amount of time i spent with these are more than what I spent with any other humans.

2011-04-19T19:40:00.006+08:00

It doesn't feel good to know that you are surrounded with a bunch of younger people who shuns you.

2011-04-18T20:20:00.002+08:00

1st day of school, back to 2nd year.

Its as if time's rewinded 1 yr back.

Only.. it's more miserable.. depressing..

...

I can't believe I am doing this right now as class exercise...

When I should be having project briefs with the yr 3s.

One freaking year

I want to cry.